Is it even possible to accept? #Mentalhealth #Life

Funny thing about my mental condition. On the one hand, I know that I would like a static, ordered life. On the other hand, the things that I really love about my current life are subject to constant change: my wife and my kids, and pop culture in various forms. Which means that on the gripping hand, is it even possible to achieve a balancing point where I can accept it all?

When I went back to therapy a few years back the therapist mentioned that I needed to find some way to mentally follow the Serenity Prayer.

God, give me grace to accept with serenity
the things that cannot be changed,
Courage to change the things
which should be changed,
and the Wisdom to distinguish
the one from the other.
Living one day at a time,
Enjoying one moment at a time,
Accepting hardship as a pathway to peace,
Taking, as Jesus did,
This sinful world as it is,
Not as I would have it,
Trusting that You will make all things right,
If I surrender to Your will,
So that I may be reasonably happy in this life,
And supremely happy with You forever in the next.

Of course being an Atheist I don’t fully endorse something like that. Not believing in a higher power or looking to that power for strength.  The idea is there, though, trying to find a way to mentally accept all of those things that challenge my mental well-being. Although I personally prefer this variation.


Anyway, what has me thinking today is acceptance. There are certain things that regularly bother me. I have some control over some of them, and none in other cases. And is it possible that I will ever reach a point where I can just accept the state of these things?

For example, due to a combination of genetics, mental makeup, career choice I am not the most physically fit person. I had a couple of years in my early forties where I got really fit, running every day and completing a few half marathons. But age and my personality caught up with me and I regressed some. The question is if I will ever reach a point where I just accept where I am and will not feel a nagging voice in my head when I do not exercise or eat junk food. I suppose it is good to have a voice that keeps me from going completely hog wild with junk food. But it is a constant source of mental unease. And I know that going in the other direction and becoming obsessive about my diet and exercise does not solve the problem because I have to work so hard to maintain the lifestyle that gets me to the stage of fitness I want (I was never completely happy with where I was even when I was at my peak fitness.)

This is more of a rhetorical post. I do not expect answers to this. It is just one of things I ponder. Just thoughts for the day.


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